spaczki onyotzki

we can never tell what going to happen right?
but it's in your hands what will happen to your life....
but still..fate has it's own way of working things out..
and still...you can escape fate's plan....
but there are things that are really not for you
and there are things that are meant for you, but you do not work on it..
if you have nothing to do with what is supposed to be yours,
then there would be no chance that it would be yours...
how could one tell if that thing is supppose to be his/her?
it's not the fact of not being yours....it's the fact of how are you going to work for it...
for anyone of us can have things anyone would like to....it depends on work...
only if you set your whole mind and heart on what your doing..then, it might just be..but if not..then,it will never be..

i want to tell you a story about the guy...
for he was in love with a girl named Bougart
but a guy named Agento took her away from him...

I have no right to get angry anyway, since he has no relationship with bougart... just friends....

yes, no one else know...
that he has this secret admiration with bougart...

and he would like to erase that feeling, since bougart has been closer and closer to him...

but he can't...

on the day that his supposed-to-be last day is near, he told Bougart his feelings...his true feeling...

it's not just a simple feeling that any child would have...

it's the feeling that is unique to every one of us...

yes, as usual...
she was shocked...
together with the blueness of the place...
the unusual place to tell a girl about this...

he did not mention about the word "love",
for it is very obvious what they are talking about....

the two of them made a promise...that after the frank conversation , they would be still the same - the closest friend...friend...

he accepted it, eventhough he would not like to be friends forever...just for the sake of her presence in his eyes...he is satisfied with it...

he is expecting nothing from her...just the closeness the both has started...

but Agento took over our friedship....

he was his good friend, and Agento knows how much he loves bougart...

i could say agento is the traitor...

but i cant blame him...

i must blame myself...

for not cherishing our friendship...

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The school is over (for now), and sembreak comes in.. The whole campus was filled with nullness.. And so he..

But he knows there's still next time - or, next semester - of repairing the error he did to bougart. He decided to relieve the pain she did to him, although the time is not enough. He will try to forget her for less than a month, because he have to delete the foolishness. That loving her is the craziest thing he did to heis life, and he do not want to bea fool again.

And so the semester starts again.. He is not yet ready, the pain is still present, but he knows he could confront her, at least. He is expecting for a Bougart - Agento partnership - or should i say, relationship. That's the first thing he did - being ready for what will happen about the two.

He met bougart, but agento is missing..

She said that agento can't take the schooling, for some reasons.

As he heard this, he is quite shocked, happy, and sad. He dont know why.

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